In doing our taxes, I had to measure out the amount of money I made during our time in Silver Spring last year vs our time in our new apartment here in DC. It really hit home in crunching those numbers just how much I lost last year. (See pic below.)

I went from 60k a year to just 20k in the same week that I was expelled from my nuclear family while simultaneously losing our roommate a year before our two-year lease was up. No wonder I felt like I was worthless — I lost all my financial solvency, capacity and belonging at the exact same moment.

Greg and Jeff didn’t help.

I recounted again to Kevin tonight my memory of being attacked at Dan’s wedding in full view of every person I loved throughout the entirety of my life. I asked him to visit Mathew Shephard w me on Easter morning, and he agreed.

Last year, the last 30 years, were really hard for me.

I keep telling myself that I’m not there anymore, and each time I reluctantly believe it a little more.

But, today, I’m really happy where we are, even if we are hitting some speed bumps w Kevin’s job,  and I just wanted to let someone know that.

Thank you for everything, Dr C.
I wouldn’t have gotten here without your help 🙂

See ya Saturday.
TK