My text to Greg today:

Thanks for clarifying, Greg. I always feel better when I see you both.

I’m still in fight-or-flight mode, waiting for another shoe to drop after the last consecutive five years of it raining shoes on Kevin and me.

We want to start relaxing into a new life, but I’m nervous about letting my guard down and being blindsided by sudden change again. I depend on you guys a lot, and I honestly worry that something will happen that will make you disappear.

If you tell me I can start getting comfortable – that our family is secure – I will believe you.

I just can’t handle any more awful surprises right now.