Well, fundamentally, outside of Kevin, all of our families have rejected us for our homosexuality. So, as we became closer friends, we decided that we would make our own nuclear family unit. They about 5-6 years older than us, very successful in careers, so it was hugely beneficial for KP and me to have role models in how to walk with agency as an adult gay man through the world.

And we really did operate as a family unit — celebrating holidays, birthdays, promotions, other major milestones together.  Things went really off-track this summer, though, and I got trapped in a very emotionally abusive dynamic w one of them specifically – Greg.

He wanted sexual freedom more than familial kinship, so he weaponized my weak points to achieve that end.

Here are some blog entries / correspondences that I think illuminate the ways he was abusing access to the emotional vulnerabilities I disclosed to throughout the year.

Thanks, ___ . It really helps to talk it out.
TK

P.S. I’m not sure if I described it to you in such stark terms, but my isolation this summer was incredibly severe. I went weeks without human contact outside of Kevin and my therapist, punctuated by visits from Greg + Jeff.

It got to the point that I was delusional. I woke up one morning in early August and went for a walk. I blanked out, and when I came to, I was having a fully engaged conversation with my reflection in a coffee shop mirror.

My therapist eventually identified it as a prolonged solitary confinement!

I attribute some of that to Tony’s dropping me, because he was the main person from my primary community who I was in the habit of communicating with. Without him roping me in, everyone else just thought I was busy.

Anyway, I thought that would be a key detail to put the giving me that graphically homophobic book into a key context.

Attached Blogs to Email:
“He Induced My Dependence on Him”
“I Took Power of the Family”