For Four months, Greg has been escalatingly gaslighting me specifically because of a sexual summer-long trist with my ex-best friend Tony. He met me at my complete vulnerability after my wedding and had been exploiting that for a year now. This was after my year of severing ties with my toxic MAGA-saturated Maryland communities. That affair or whatever compromised a principle support source of mine, one that connected me to my remaining communities of support.

Tony completely dropped me and then started spending all of his time with them. Greg and Jeff virtually replaced KP and me in our spots in that community of support.

He induced my dependency on him during this silent isolated summer when I worked the silent job up-county while simultaneously having no friends locally.

I confronted the both of them about it in August, but they vehemently deny it. But Greg has not failed to bring Tony up to me at least every two weeks since. He then kept feeding me vicious mean spirited lies and insinuations about everyone I know to me. I’ve divulged a lot of vulnerabilites to him over the last year, and whenever he felt I was getting to close, he would attack another vulnerable area I’ve disclosed to him in the past: My homophobic family; my violent backstory w Dan Miller and his friends; my internalized homophobia.

He purposely confined me. I was in a situation where if, I told Kevin, the family would dissolve. I was forced to choose between a toxic family or no family at all. No friends, either.

Recently, he sent me a cryptic message that once again insinuated he was still fucking Tony.

Soon after, we met after work at a bar (we all work at the same metro stop in DC, even though they live in DC) , He told me all about his Saturday night with Tony this weekend.

So I set up a border wall. I told him I felt completely abandoned by Tony this summer when I absolutely needed my best friend. They can be still be friends or whatever, but Tony needs to be completely invisible to me. It hurts my feelings, these constant reminders that I was replaced.

I told him I feel strongly enough about it that I would stop seeing them, too.

*****
“Hey Greg!

So, I’m just going to be blunt about this.I called Tony after my freak out this summer, and he listened to me describe my horrible, endangered lunacy resulting from my severe isolation. He set a date a couple days later to FaceTime w me, but then he bailed. He never checked in again on me once since I called him way back in early August. He abandoned me in the same way my family did, all the while knowing the dire straits of my situation.

It’s always been on me to maintain the relationship, from the moment I met him, and I had to realize that when my safety was on the line.As such, he’s officially outside the borders of my family, so he must be completely invisible to me.

Please never mention him to me again or, perhaps, insinuate him in a poem you might think to send me. I was led to expect that I would receive the labor of family from him long-term, and that is a very painful thing for me to remember.

So I am choosing to forget.

And I will do whatever it takes to forget.

Whatever
It
takes.

Please do not acknowledge this topic ever again. Do not respond to this message.”