Hey Dr C,

Sorry for so many emails this week.

I didn’t like how quickly I got dependent on him again on Monday.

Then I made some realizations that started w realizing he gave me a book to read this summer w lots of graphic scenes of a rural gay kid getting beat up by a high school gang. That was during the same time I was in solitary confinement from my job and when he was purposefully compromising my relationship w Tony — a crucial support of mine.

I remember bringing it up while reading it, and he told me he worried I wouldn’t be able to handle those scenes. 
He knew better.

He induced my dependence on him this whole year, and He’s been gaslighting me specifically about Tony since I moved to DC.

He did this same thing to that one other kid he wrote us about in his letter in February, the kid who eventually committed suicide.

I’m okay. I just needed to tell someone that.

I haven’t been sleeping well for a while is the thing.
TK